Its funny how rumination and time changes things. Just 36 hrs ago I thought Kate would come to her senses, let me support her, be understanding of where I am at as I was clearly trying to be understanding of where she was at yet not leave issues unresolved.
24 Hrs later after thinking, discussing, rethinking, I chose to no longer sacrifice myself for someone so insensitive and uncertain of what she wants. I thought yesterday about all of the things I did for her and all of the energy and effort I put forth. I know you romantics may lump me in the category of being selfish or a jerk myself. If you knew as Kate does of everything I have done and overcome to express devotion and respect to her, to pursue her and champion her as a man then no one has the right to call me selfish or a jerk.
I really love people, I love doing things for people but I don't like my effort being neglected or being taken advantage of.
When that threshold is crossed I have a hard time finding sympathy or empathizing with someone in any situation. I don't neglect, much to Kate's concern of me overlooking her needs I never did. I may have not communicated that well but rarely (during time when I was tired and stressed) did I not consider her emotions first before my own.
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